Unbearable Agony: My Battle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It was a dreary Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense sensation erupted behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.
The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: aura in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-blown agony in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches often begin with severe pain around a single eye that lasts for several hours.
About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and men are more often affected. Cluster headaches usually start with sudden, severe agony focused on one eye that peaks within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal bouts; some patients have chronic attacks, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods.
What connects patients is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the figure fell to 4% when they were not in pain.
Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, like many causes, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.
Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.
Still, the inability to organize life around unpredictable pain took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.
Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The first description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the topic. They linked the disease to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.
Ancient healing records propose bizarre remedies for what modern observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.
It was a Dutch physician who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.
The disorder were only formally recognised by international medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key artery that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.
In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.
In spite of such advances, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four operations before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor researched his symptoms.
Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.
A charity trustee, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dentists misunderstood her pain. She believes dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a calm advisor talked me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack passed.
Official guidance on management advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of well-known people.
But leading neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are handled with acute therapy only. Longer or more intense periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.
The national guidance need updating to reflect a